It hurts!

It hurts!

An aching wound from the past

Seems so cancerous

That dispersed around my Achilles' heel

In every seconds, minutes and even

A days.

It hurts I know

I played a wrong game. I understand

Why I'm no longer yours

And will never be.

I loved playing mens

It's fun frolicking someone's feeling

But my life's perception

Changed; I suffered.

I'm living with no assurance, without certainty

And in a terrible agonies

As I was once living with enthusiasm

sincerely.

Tears begun flowing constantly

As I felt a twinge on my heart

Like I was stabbed by a knife

Not prick by a needle. Repeatedly I'll say,

'It hurts! It hurts!'

I have been numb

As the days passed. Losing you

Makes me drown into emptiness. Tiredly I mutter,

'It hurts.'

Behind those Smile

What's behind those smile in you?

Every time I see you, you smile and laugh but when I turn back you weep.

How heavy the sadness you are keeping?

Have you experience being with yourself alone?

Were you keeping it as a secret considering the other people's perception of you?

Because they sees you as a happy-go-lucky person? Because they expect you to just smile and laugh the difficult things in life?

Friend, you are a human too. You are not that numb to just let yourself drown in secrecy. It's not a sin  to cry nor to share what you feel behind your smile.

I was also once living with secrecy. For me, it is better to keep it myself but I realize I was wrong.

Problem— it's too heavy to carry without someone beside you. Someone who will advice and comfort you. Who will laugh at your mistakes. It's the most unforgettable thing.

So, friend, don't hold back. Let yourself smile and laugh but do not fake it for the sake of others. Be confident of who you are. Be yourself.

Share the feelings. Share the happiness.